i had this in mind last night

tw: self harm, alcoholism and things that are probably offensive to those who do self harm or drink
this is really offensive wow actually i'm going to regret posting this
very offensive please it's not my fault that you get upset over this I'M MAKING THIS VERY CLEAR. IT'S BAD.




i know people are going to be angry when i say this
but self harming is utter stupidity
,,actually not really, i understand the whole heat of the moment thing, and i've done it as well
but i regret doing it 100%. it's plain dumb. think about your actions.

i'll just say something:
if you wanted to kill yourself you would've done it already.
whoa there pamela, slow down that's really bad how could you say that jesus christ
i said this to make my case.

if you haven't died already, there's something holding you back. there's still things to look forward to.

maybe people don't self harm because they want to kill themselves. maybe it's because they want attention, or it's a cry for help. but i, and others, would know, even if my scars don't look like "scars" at all, that all you're going to get are grimaces and worry and you're going to put stress on the people you care about. and there are other ways to get help for christ's sake ! i've had three people--three people--tell me that the reason they hurt themselves, or had hurt themselves in the past, was because no one would listen. i get the idea. it's very, very difficult to ask for help. but it's better than putting permanent scars on your body and then looking back in fifteen years and saying "what the actual fuck was i thinking?".

no, i don't dislike people who self harm. no, i won't tell you that you're crazy or mental. but i am going to tell it to you straight up; you need help. cutting, burning or scratching yourself will not get you anywhere. i don't see the point. i really don't. i'm not going to be nice about it anymore, and i'm not going to go easy on you. talk to someone. get help. see a therapist. whatever you need to do to stop harming your beautiful miracle of a body. don't neglect it. please don't. just stop.

i used to harm myself in a way i thought wouldn't be permanent. i drank alcohol. hard liquor. it eased my mind. it helped me forget some of the trauma in life. and in a way, i was okay with drinking myself into an early grave. i thought life was a horrible game of dead or alive. you fight to the death, and that's all the time you get. but then i thought about it.

EVERYONE HAS BAD DAYS. EVERYONE IS DEPRESSED ONCE IN A WHILE. SOME HAVE DEPRESSION, ANXIETY OR OTHERS IN A WAY THAT PUSHES THEM AROUND. BUT THAT IS NO EXCUSE TO HARM YOURSELF LIKE THAT. ALL YOU NEED IS GUIDANCE.

we are ADOLESCENTS. we have HORMONES. but this doesn't mean we're devoid of true warmth, compassion, or even sorrow. emotions are PERFECTLY NATURAL, and there are other ways to feel sorry for yourself.

distract yourself from those emotions with a book, spending time with people you care about, watching a movie, playing a game; come on there's so many other options !!

if you feel the need to cut yourself try using pens to draw lines okay

please don't harm yourselves anymore. i'm only saying this because i'm worried. it feels like everyone i know has gotten themselves into it. i'm just so worried. please stop.